Well It has been months and I am not as dedicated as some of my friends on Xanga with updating.

Sorry...

Lately I have been dealing with a very personal issue in my life.

Sunday for most people is a day of food, celebration, and football.

Its not for me.  Mainly because it marks an anniversary of a day

I would rather forget. That in years past hasn't affected me as much. 

This year its harder then ever.  Shane doesn't understand, he tries.

I don't even understand. 

 A majority of my life I heard your family is always there for you no matter what. 

Your family is all you have.

No one else will ever stand beside you like your family. 

 I have trouble believing it. 

Blood isn't always thicker then Water. 

 I've learned that God IS always there. 

Even when we are honest and it hurts Him.

He still stands beside us, carries us, and when we don't want him around

 follows behind us to catch us when we fall.

Boy I Love them!!